GIRLS

Ever since i was young, i always had a trouble speaking to girls with ease besides my mum and obviously i still do now and i never really figured out why.... im kinda like im just like Rajesh Koothrappali from the big bang theory shy as a mouse when it comes to talking to girls. 

  I guess sometimes i feel i am just scared that i will scare away the girls i talk to or make them feel that i am flirting with them even tho i am not. The only girls i really feel safe and can be my funny self is when i am behind the laptop but in real life i cant act like myself in fact actually im quite quiet. I just dont understand why sometimes and i really hate it cause i cant act normal. Like for example, today just wanted to hug and console my friend who has have been problems but i just held myself back cause i THINK its wrong or just awkward and it will give people mix signals. Even last time when i just chat normally with girl - friends i will still have this little awkward moment and not be able to really be myself always look so serious and need friends to joke around before i even joke around... why!!! so sad..

 And i still wonder how i even got a gf.... so weird... maybe i just dont know what i am doing sometimes or maybe just luck? Hmm... Oh well... guess i still have lots of things to learn and change myself so i can be more brave and not scare girls!!! Anywayz exams are here and just want to wish everybody good luck with their exams and hope they are easy!!!

Daesung (bigbang) ft Nemo (shinvi) - Now we (MV)

DREAMS

Just had an unforgettable dream lately!! It was awesome and after waking up my heart was actually beating so fast i think i could have had a heart attack. lolzz.. exaggerating too much,but sometimes i really wish those wishes would come true as especially if it could happen in the future. Have u all ever wanted some of those good dreams to really come true? 

 Couldnt really remember the dream exactly but i remember just meeting the girl i admired the most since my first year in uni and we did all the romantic stuff together and they were many obstacles holding us back from telling each other that we liked each other but i was the more shy one that did not want to even ask cause i knew that she did not like me, so i held myself back all the time.

 and then one day (it kinda skipped many events... lolz).. we went on a trip with other friends and all of us slept near each other as the room was small and there were alot of beds and after arranging, my bed was actually next to hers but still nothing happened we just joked around as usual until when it was time to go to bed, i felt nervous but a hand actually reached out and held my hand and our hands locked together and we stared at each other in the eyes and smiled at each other and then i woke up. LOLZ... it was really one of the best dreams that i have ever had although it might look like i watch alot of dramas but the feeling was soo real... just made me want to live in that fantasy forever away from all the troubles that this world has.. OH I WISH... sadly, i dont think it would ever happen... life is real and dreams would never come real.. especially the best ones... just can watch sunsets and always remember that amazing dream...... :)

Why is it so unfair?

 Recently, my friend has been into all kinds of problems from the uni and it got me thinking, what has happen to life? Why is it unfair? why treat my friends unfairly... why instead of the uni helping the students why purposely give us the trouble to have to message the tutors or lecturers and then suddenly they tell u they made a mistake, why? and really.. i am kinda worried for this friend cause recently, he/she has been told that there is something wrong with the assignment and with everything happening just recently, making a person just worried almost every week is just torturing and i really pity this friend because i cannot help in any way except praying.

But really this is ridiculous to make people to assignments so close to the exams and also have problems. It would just make someone break at the very end... why bully people? No wonder nobody likes MONASH uni anymore, all they care about is money and they do not care about the students and the lecturers are just damn lazy, they most probably dont even do second markings on students who failed cause apparently my friends who checked had a MIRACLE pass. why did that happen? because the lecturer and the first marker missed out a few pages to mark.. how can a double check have missed out on those pages? TOTAL FAIL I TELL U!!! 

Anyways, i really hope to who have read this would pray for my friend who is having this problem and its not a big problem and can still pass the assignment. TO this friend, im sorry that i cannot help u, but i really do hope u can keep ur spirits up cause hate to see u emo like that, i know it feels sucky but u must fight through it and hope for the best dont give up and get tired of it!! STAY STRONG!! At the end of the day u will be victorious in what u do so dont give up!! :) U have alot of peoples support and IT IS THE FACT!! Everything u have gone through is a lesson to be learned and u will reap the benefits after the bad experiences. I really do hope u get inspired, and dont give up!! Life is unfair it really is but if u look it in a positive way, it would transform in many ways u wouldnt even imagine. JUST TRUST URSELF and keep staying strong!! :) 

I know i might sound abit repetitive, sorry about that but really cant put it in any other words.. haha.. but really want u to have more confidence in urself and not just give up and accept anything it would just make u more depressed..... really want to give u a hug but sometimes just shy and might feel awkward!! hhahahaa but anywayzzz hang in theree!! everything will come out good at the end!! MY PRAYERS ARE WITH U!!! :) 

Relationships

 I just read my friend's blog, and he/she talked about how people fall in and out of relationships so easily and i have to agree based on the past events and people or friends that i have seen going through this. Its really tough being in a relationship, a person would most of the time never have things in common and the give and take concept rarely works long term, it usually just makes people break up even faster sometimes as giving and taking when accumulated for a long time just ends up in anger and bitterness in the long term.

 I recently have also been thinking about my own and past events that i have gone through and really saw a clearer picture of how my relationships have gone. Mostly is my fault but generally i could see that most of the reasons why my relationships would fall out is because we just never had the same aim or same path which made things grow further part after a while as we got deeper and further away from the path where the split happens

 Sometimes i still find it so complexed that i dont even dare to give people advices anymore because sometimes everybody is just different in their own way and have their own thinking and i really have been studying the different possibilities and let me tell u, what i have seen could only be 2% its that different and most of the ones that i encountered have always been different and hardly any similarities in them. All i can say is that create ur own solutions based on past experience or really get to know ur partner because it would never solve anything if u use peoples experience for ur own. Just be URSELF and really know each other and sometimes u have to go the extra mile to do the unthinkable for a ONCE IN A WHILE surprise lolzz.

badminton weekend!!

 A hot, competitive and relaxing weekend before the start of exam .. AMAZING how the week goes by just like that sometimes... just like a rainbow appearing just after a drizzle and dissappears within minutes

This was on sunday where the Taiwanese Festival was kind of a dissapointment but good day to relax with friends in BLOCK M ... awesome indonesian food!! will definately go there again!! ;) A boring hot afternoon but really really awesome company.. no words to put it but Zzzzzzzz hahaha just kidding 

  They gay boy decided to put on a more gay pose!!! hahahaha

 SATURDAY, MELBOURNE UNI OPEN exciting moments, this is what i call a competition, and above are the new badminton racquet that everybody has or bought this year awesomeeee... :)

 Tense moments where we watched our opponents play and thought of strategiess

Everything ended in a slight dissapointment but proved that we could do it if we wanted to and should train harder but it was a happy tournament this time round and a really exciting one :)


 Results for mine is ROund 1: 30 -20
                                        Round 2: 28-30 (loss group stage)

NEW ME !!!

I kinda thought of moving away from a emo post and change my style for blogging to be shorter and easier to read and happier post!!! and i will try to put more pics instead of words!! :)